···11+engine: nixery
22+when:
33+ - event: ["push"]
44+ branch: ["main"]
55+66+dependencies:
77+ nixpkgs:
88+ - nodejs
99+ - bash
1010+1111+steps:
1212+ - name: install dependencies
1313+ command: npm install
1414+1515+ - name: build site
1616+ # Use 'npm run build' which runs 'astro build'
1717+ command: npm run build
1818+1919+ - name: deploy
2020+ # 1. We upload 'dist' (Astro default), not 'build'.
2121+ # 2. We explicitly pass the Account ID and Token environment variables.
2222+ command: |
2323+ CLOUDFLARE_ACCOUNT_ID=$CLOUDFLARE_ACCOUNT_ID \
2424+ CLOUDFLARE_API_TOKEN=$CLOUDFLARE_API_TOKEN \
2525+ npx --yes wrangler pages deploy dist --project-name tangled-blog --branch master
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README.md
···11-# MultiTerm Astro 🎨⚡️
22-33-**MultiTerm** is an Astro blog theme designed for coders who love their color schemes. Easily theme your whole website with your favorite color schemes and have your prose rendered with a nod to the aesthetics of raw markdown.
44-55-Check out the [Showing Off Blog Features](https://multiterm.stelclementine.com/posts/showing-off-blog-features) post to see all the exciting MultiTerm capabilites on the [live example site](https://multiterm.stelclementine.com)!
66-77-> v2.0.0 has been released! 🥳
88-99-
1010-
1111-
1212-
1313-
1414-
1515-
1616-1717-## ✨ Features
1818-1919-- **Amazing Theme Selection**: Personalize your blog's appearance with your favorite editor color scheme. Pick your favorite [Shiki themes](https://expressive-code.com/guides/themes/#available-themes) bundled with Expressive Code.
2020-- **Dark/Light/Auto Theme Mode**: Choose any two Shiki themes and use the standard light/dark/auto model for automatically adapting to your reader's theme preferences with button in the site header.
2121-- **Multiple Theme Mode**: Choose three (or all 59!) Shiki themes and allow your reader to choose their favorite from a dialog menu opened from a button in the header. Every element seamlessly changes color interactively using the magic of CSS variables.
2222-- **GitHub Comment Section**: Allow readers to respond, discuss, and react with a comment section powered by GitHub and [Giscus](https://giscus.app). Painstakingly themed to match your site perfectly.
2323-- **GitHub Activity Widget**: Optionally include a statically generated GitHub activity calendar on the homepage that (of course) matches the active color scheme perfectly.
2424-- **Markdown Extensions**: Admonitions, auto-generated TOC that sticks to the side on large screens, emoji shortcodes, KaTeX math, MDX, and reading time estimates. See the example site's [Showing Off Blog Features](https://multiterm.stelclementine.com/posts/showing-off-blog-features) post.
2525-- **RSS Feed and Sitemap**: Built-in support for RSS feeds and sitemap with no extra configuration.
2626-- **Social Links**: Easily include links to common developer platforms including GitHub, Mastodon, Twitter, LinkedIn and E-mail.
2727-- **Responsive Design**: Optimized for all devices from desktops to mobile phones. Built with [Tailwind v4](https://tailwindcss.com/).
2828-- **SEO Optimized**: Boost your site's visibility with built-in SEO best practices and automatically generated social card images for every page via [Satori](https://github.com/vercel/satori).
2929-- **Customizable Build**: Powered by [Astro](https://astro.build/), render as a static site (the default) or generate content dynamically.
3030-3131-Check out the example site [PageSpeed scores](https://pagespeed.web.dev/analysis/https-multiterm-stelclementine-com/qhnp521yci?form_factor=mobile) and [OpenGraph analysis](https://www.opengraph.xyz/url/https%3A%2F%2Fmultiterm.stelclementine.com)
3232-3333-## 🚀 Getting Started
3434-3535-**Clone the Repository**:
3636-3737-```bash
3838-git clone --depth 1 https://github.com/stelcodes/multiterm-astro my-new-blog && cd my-new-blog
3939-```
4040-4141-**Install Dependencies**:
4242-4343-```bash
4444-npm install
4545-```
4646-4747-**Start the Development Server**:
4848-4949-```bash
5050-npm run dev
5151-```
5252-5353-**Build Your Site and View the Results**:
5454-5555-```bash
5656-npm run build && npm run preview
5757-```
5858-5959-## 🛠️ Configuration
6060-6161-Simple configuration is a core feature of MultiTerm. All configuration is done from a single file: `src/site.config.ts`. This is where you can tailor your website to match your vision.
6262-6363-Please take a look at `src/site.config.ts` for more information about the configuration options.
6464-6565-To add your own content, check out the `src/content` directory. Feel free to remove all the example content and replace it with your own!
6666-6767-## 📄 License
6868-6969-This project is licensed under the [MIT License](LICENSE.txt).
7070-7171-## Inspiration
7272-7373-- https://github.com/panr/hugo-theme-terminal
7474-- https://github.com/chrismwilliams/astro-theme-cactus
7575-7676-## 🩷 Sponsor
7777-7878-Consider [buying me a coffee](https://ko-fi.com/stelclementine) to keep me caffeinated while I work on open source projects like this one!
7979-8080-8181-[](https://www.star-history.com/#stelcodes/multiterm-astro&Date)
···11---
22title: "Musings"
33-published: 2025-11-18
44-draft: false
33+published: 2025-12-07
44+draft: true
55description: '...'
66tags: ["musings"]
77---
···32323333…
34343535-One of the quiter ones huh
3535+One of the quieter ones huh
36363737-I am not quite!
3737+I am not quiet!
38383939Well, to answer your question, again you are not supposed to do anything but tha-
4040···78787979What do you think you have been doing till now :) The problem isn't you asking me a question, the problem is you asking an answer. You refuse to think about it, you refuse to take on that burden because you are afraid of what your answer could be
80808181-…
8181+But if others hate me, what will I do? How will I live completely alone?
8282+8383+Why do you live?
8484+8585+What do you mean why do I live?
8686+8787+I mean why are you still alive, if you don't have any hope, why haven't you killed yourself?
8888+8989+Because people I care about, my parents, my friends, would be sad if I died
9090+9191+So you live for others?
9292+9393+Isn't that good enough?
9494+9595+You are making excuses, just like you always do. Pretending to be the forever victim, the one who couldn't have done any wrong, the one who fate has robbed at every turn.
82968397…
84988585-So I don't need other people?
9999+You like having othes depend upon you, even if for the very smallest of the things, it satisfies that twisted little mind of yours, it makes you feel worth something.
100100+101101+That could be…
102102+103103+If you want real happiness, you have got to find it for yourself, not wait for somebody to give it to you! Isn't that what you have been doing?
104104+105105+I am worthless, nobody needs me.
106106+107107+You seek your value in the perce
108108+109109+AHHH SHUT UP!!!
110110+111111+ption of others. Do you fear being alone? You're afraid that you will lose your identity if others leave you
112112+113113+JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!! HOW CAN A FLOATING VOICE EVEN DARE TELL ME THAT!!
114114+115115+You're afraid that you will disappear from the mind of others. Each conversation they have that doesn't involve you, each inside joke that you are not part of, each knowing glance that you can't decipher scares you. Isn't that right?
116116+117117+No it is not, I want to be alone, I don't feel emotions since a long time, I have not cried in 5 years, I have always been alone and I like being alone. That is the reason I left my home and came to a new city for school. I want to be alone.
118118+119119+Was it really that or did you just want the attention to yourself? Tired of the fact that your brother was the one your mother has always liked more? What about when your entire family had that car crash and your mother kept looking for him, not even bothering to look at you? Or how your father was so focused on getting your mother in the hospital that he just left you with a stranger, with a broken and bleeding foot and a detached ear? How old were you then, 13?
120120+121121+I did not do it for attention. And anyways, nowadays they DO focus more on me!
122122+123123+Yes, after your brother disappointed them for 5 years straight. Huh, the same amount of years that took you to regain their trust after exactly two lies!! Do you think things will remain the same once he regains it too, as he is currently doing, or will they revert back to how things actually were? A 3 year old boy getting beaten up because he wanted his favourite song to play, a 8 year old getting beaten because his hand writing is not that good, a 15 year old getting beaten up because somebody stole the handle grips from his bicycle?
124124+125125+Even if they do, I don't care, things have always been like that and I have made my peace with it
126126+127127+Have you really?
86128
+7-5
src/content/posts/perpetual.org
···33#+DESCRIPTION: ...
44#+tags: musings
55#+OPTIONS: toc:nil
66-#+DRAFT: false
66+#+DRAFT: true
7788Am I alone?
99···31313232...
33333434-One of the quiter ones huh
3434+One of the quieter ones huh
35353636-I am not quite!
3636+I am not quiet!
37373838Well, to answer your question, again you are not supposed to do anything but tha-
3939···115115116116No it is not, I want to be alone, I don't feel emotions since a long time, I have not cried in 5 years, I have always been alone and I like being alone. That is the reason I left my home and came to a new city for school. I want to be alone.
117117118118-Was it really that or did you just want the attention to yourself? Tired of the fact that your brother was the one your mother has always liked more? What about when your entire family had that car crash and your mother kept looking for him, not even bothering to look at you? Or how your father was so focused on getting your mother in the hospital that he just left you with a stranger, with a broken and bleeding foot and a detached year? How old were you then, 13?
118118+Was it really that or did you just want the attention to yourself? Tired of the fact that your brother was the one your mother has always liked more? What about when your entire family had that car crash and your mother kept looking for him, not even bothering to look at you? Or how your father was so focused on getting your mother in the hospital that he just left you with a stranger, with a broken and bleeding foot and a detached ear? How old were you then, 13?
119119120120-I did not do it for attention. And anyways, nowadays the DO focus more on me!
120120+I did not do it for attention. And anyways, nowadays they DO focus more on me!
121121122122Yes, after your brother disappointed them for 5 years straight. Huh, the same amount of years that took you to regain their trust after exactly two lies!! Do you think things will remain the same once he regains it too, as he is currently doing, or will they revert back to how things actually were? A 3 year old boy getting beaten up because he wanted his favourite song to play, a 8 year old getting beaten because his hand writing is not that good, a 15 year old getting beaten up because somebody stole the handle grips from his bicycle?
123123124124Even if they do, I don't care, things have always been like that and I have made my peace with it
125125+126126+Have you really?
+46-4
src/content/posts/perpetual.org~
···31313232...
33333434-One of the quiter ones huh
3434+One of the quieter ones huh
35353636-I am not quite!
3636+I am not quiet!
37373838Well, to answer your question, again you are not supposed to do anything but tha-
3939···77777878What do you think you have been doing till now :) The problem isn't you asking me a question, the problem is you asking an answer. You refuse to think about it, you refuse to take on that burden because you are afraid of what your answer could be
79798080-...
8080+But if others hate me, what will I do? How will I live completely alone?
8181+8282+Why do you live?
8383+8484+What do you mean why do I live?
8585+8686+I mean why are you still alive, if you don't have any hope, why haven't you killed yourself?
8787+8888+Because people I care about, my parents, my friends, would be sad if I died
8989+9090+So you live for others?
9191+9292+Isn't that good enough?
9393+9494+You are making excuses, just like you always do. Pretending to be the forever victim, the one who couldn't have done any wrong, the one who fate has robbed at every turn.
81958296...
83978484-So I don't need other people?
9898+You like having othes depend upon you, even if for the very smallest of the things, it satisfies that twisted little mind of yours, it makes you feel worth something.
9999+100100+That could be...
101101+102102+If you want real happiness, you have got to find it for yourself, not wait for somebody to give it to you! Isn't that what you have been doing?
103103+104104+I am worthless, nobody needs me.
105105+106106+You seek your value in the perce
107107+108108+AHHH SHUT UP!!!
109109+110110+ption of others. Do you fear being alone? You're afraid that you will lose your identity if others leave you
111111+112112+JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!! HOW CAN A FLOATING VOICE EVEN DARE TELL ME THAT!!
113113+114114+You're afraid that you will disappear from the mind of others. Each conversation they have that doesn't involve you, each inside joke that you are not part of, each knowing glance that you can't decipher scares you. Isn't that right?
115115+116116+No it is not, I want to be alone, I don't feel emotions since a long time, I have not cried in 5 years, I have always been alone and I like being alone. That is the reason I left my home and came to a new city for school. I want to be alone.
117117+118118+Was it really that or did you just want the attention to yourself? Tired of the fact that your brother was the one your mother has always liked more? What about when your entire family had that car crash and your mother kept looking for him, not even bothering to look at you? Or how your father was so focused on getting your mother in the hospital that he just left you with a stranger, with a broken and bleeding foot and a detached ear? How old were you then, 13?
119119+120120+I did not do it for attention. And anyways, nowadays they DO focus more on me!
121121+122122+Yes, after your brother disappointed them for 5 years straight. Huh, the same amount of years that took you to regain their trust after exactly two lies!! Do you think things will remain the same once he regains it too, as he is currently doing, or will they revert back to how things actually were? A 3 year old boy getting beaten up because he wanted his favourite song to play, a 8 year old getting beaten because his hand writing is not that good, a 15 year old getting beaten up because somebody stole the handle grips from his bicycle?
123123+124124+Even if they do, I don't care, things have always been like that and I have made my peace with it
125125+126126+Have you really?